I have the two most wonderful children. We have raised them well. I have spent and do spend an amazing amount of emotional energy on concerning myself with their life experience. In general it all works well...but on days like today I question the commitment.
I had a car accident on Friday with Hazel in the passenger seat. I took her with me to early vote. She came in the booth with me and I walked her through the entire ballot with whispers and an explanation to why I vote the way I do and how voting is a personal choice that is the RIGHT of every American. I explained how there are two sides to every amendment, measure or candidate. I explained that although I have been super OBAMA MOMMA for the past few months I do understand the issue from the other side. I do understand and all I ask is that when she votes, she educate herself on each and every candidate and issue and NOT vote one way or another just because others are. So when we left the booth we headed to the parking lot and as we exited the lot to the backed up traffic on the passing road we were hit by a man going very fast. It hot the driver passenger and the driver door primarily. We were both okay. So then the shock of being the single woman with no one to call sets in. This happens often. I seem to always be alone.
Anyway, I called USAA and got my claim started before the police woman even arrived. When she did arrive she gave me a ticket for a a bad Left Turn....obviously. So then I drove to the dealer with the two doors unable to completely close and car warning lights going off in the Jeep. The dealer people knew me because my car had the great fortune of sustaining $4000 dollars of hail damage on the 4th day I owned it. That was less than 4 months ago. Looks like this is a tough year for me. I will have paid two $500 deductibles in less than 6 months. Ouch.
So last night I took the kids to Spooktacular at the Zoo because when I tried to take them last year and accidentally missed the date (where was Lee...he was not here so he must have been at some training--he took them 2 years ago) they both cried all the way home and have brought it up all year. The even was so crowded and miserable--well I digress. It felt like an amazing waste of time although I did get a couple of good pics in with the pumpkins and some stuffed Eagle that I thought was an ostrich.
Today was dedicated to Hazel's school projects and homework that took the entire day and still is not finished. I work tomorrow and Tuesday (7a-7p) so I will probably be up late helping her finish before Tuesday. Liam had lacrosse so I took him there. Hazel lost a molar that has been hanging for days. Liam fell off the couch after doing something silly and cried of sternal pain for an hour---so I bathed him and put him in my bed. So now it looks like I will head to bed and sleep on the other side of the bed where the dog threw up two nights ago and I have only half cleaned up. Sigh... I made the kids lunches and wrote directions for my Dad for the day so that he can get the kids sorted for the day.
The kids have a lot of homework and Liam is showing some huge signs that I may have dyslexia in my parenting future. I think it is a gift in many ways but it is certainly time consuming helping him and finding new ways to present information and help him retain certain things that do not come naturally. Tonight I find it difficult to do it all on my own. Raise the kids and give them what they need. I dread work in a way and worry that I will forget to organize something. Thankfully my Dad is here and doing a great job. He leaves November 4th and I will only have two weeks solo to sort out.
Spoke with Lee tonight on Skype...he slept in today and went for a long run. I think it upsets him that I find this so irritating. The facts are the facts. In this situation (and all really in our case) the men have the ability to up and go whenever they want and don't feel badly about it because the facts is that I (and other women I suppose) will take care of the gap and do all the work and take the responsibility of the children, and work and home and make it happen. I feel that although we may be on the verge of great progress in some ways in this country, there are many places that we are not.
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Hi Nicole
Agree with you in all the things you are going through and will probably go through the whole year without Lee .But let me tell you girl, you are doing an awesome job and I would say that as much as Lee would be on the battleground you are also on one and trust me its harder .Try to keep your spirits high !!!!!!!!!!!
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